my heartbreak

My pain, wish and future

I know I shouldn’t but I do, I miss you. I see now that I had different expectations than what has happened. I don’t know why I cry because you were never with me, we had an elusive delusional relationshipo and so now it is my time ti wake up from the dream and see the truth, face reality, how harsh it is. There is apart of me that believed that somehow some way we would be together. I now see that is impossible and after all the hurt, all the tears, all the pain, I don’t think I would want it.
I know it has to hurt, for me to heal and heal I will, I will wake up and not remember that ...