Lying awake

i hate this world! my life is such a mess. why didnt i wait and see wat would happen. always jumping to conclusions. dumb twit me! i hate myself for this! i blame myself. why did she do it? why?
its all my fault. i failed to see all the signs. oh dear sister...why did you do it?
my life is a complete mess since you left.
i wake up to this same dull room. they same teddies, the same cd`s...