Brian Molko

I’m sitting here writing this because my mind is filled with all these thoughts, many of them that confuse the fuck out of me. Maybe this will explain the way I’m acting. So here it goes.
I was hanging out with Billy, Jessi, and Nick today. Well, Billy ended up getting fucked up so we had to get him to the hospital. When he was asked who he wanted to ride in the ambulance with him, he chose me. He had his head in my lap and I just stared at him, realizing that I have small feelings for him. It really hurts me to say it because I really don’t want to hurt you. It’s all just really fucked up and I can’t help but cry thinking that it will hurt you. I don’t want to hurt you, I never would, but I don’t know what to do. I know it may seem stupid because Billy and Paul are dating, but I can’t help but feel this way. I feel so guilty of having these feelings. I don’t even know why this is happening to me because in all reality, I really don’t deserve it. I don’t even...